"Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you have decided to look beyond the imperfections." - Anonymous
I am a classic over-acheiver, the word "no" has never really been in my vocabulary and have a lot of success at whatever I put my mind to. I've been hearing "no" a lot lately.
It's not that I expect the world to be perfect, but I do hold myself to a higher standard. I want to be perfect, I want to always strive for perfection - does this mean that I'm not ever going to be truly happy?
I was passed over for an opportunity at work. To be clear, this is only the second career-related rejection that I have ever had. Well three if you count that I wasn't the first choice candidate for the position I currently have. So if all of my rejections have occurred in the last few years, what does this mean? Is it that the people in this particular industry do not know the value of what I can do? Does it mean that I'm getting to be "too old?" Have I set my goal higher than what I can acheive?
Now don't get me wrong, I have a good job, I get paid well and I have a lot of flexibility which allows me to have a good home life. All of these things are important to me. I never thoought about doing more or being more until I started in this job. Until I started having more and more responsibility and a boss who said that if she ever left her job I would be an excellent choice as a replacement, the concept of being more than a superior assistant never even crossed my mind.
I was happy being the best at what I do, so I need to figure out how to get back to happy. See this moment, this time as merely an imperfection in life, not an imperfection in me.
Shit this is hard...
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