"You've changed so much. I guess that's what happens. I wish you knew how much you changed me. I wonder if I changed you, if your life is different because of me. Because mine's different. My God, you taught me so much and now we don't even talk to each other. I guess that's what happens." - Unknown
I had training with Jo today. She said that I had to update my blog because my last blog was just so depressing to see up there first every day. I appreciate that she looks back to my blog once in a while.
I'm going to let you in on a little secret. It's not something that I share with a lot of people, but when I do, I'm pretty candid about it: I do not like most people.
I do need to preface this a little bit. You see, people, as a whole, are falliable. People are going to let you down - this is a simple fact of life. People will fail you. Now, I am just as guilty as the rest of you, I have failed people. I have said that I would show up, only to call last minute and cancel. I have told a secret that wasn't mine to share. I have hurt people, however unintentionally, with the best of intentions in mind. I am not perfect, nor do I expect other people to be perfect. However, I have had my share of failures, of disappointments, and countless times I have been rejected by my peers.
It is probably not suprising then, that I would choose to not like most people. But this choice, is out of protection, not because I think that all humans are bad, but because I like to minimize the amount of investment I make to people who are going to let me down. I choose to keep my circle small to people that I can count on, people that do what they say they are going to do. Why? Because it hurts less when they let you down. People that generally do what they say they are going to do are dependable, and they get a lot of credit in the integrity bank account that I have set up for them, when they disappoint me, they might lose a little interest, but by and large they remain in good standing. But more importantly, people who do what they say they are going to do, help me to be accountable right back at them. I want my integrity bank to be just as full, if not more full with them.
People will always let you down at some point, I just choose to be picky about who I will accept that from. Are you in my inner circle? How is your integrity bank account?
Agreed. People will always let you down at some point...trying not to take it too personally is the challenge.
ReplyDeleteI think my integrity bank account is pretty good, although admittedly I'm trying to find a way out of an event I committed to tomorrow night :( Pretty sure not one of them give a rat's ass if I attend so I'm not going to upset any accounts ;)