Tuesday, August 24, 2010

“Consider how hard it is to change yourself and you'll understand what little chance you have in trying to change others.” - Author Unknown

I'm a little frustrated today. Maybe cranky.  I am having a difficult time trying to decide what emotion I'm toying with that doesn't make me sound like a big baby. 

I am a classic over achiever.  Generally speaking I am successful at whatever I put my mind to which is why I have been so excited about this renewed effort at eating better, working out and spending time at Jo Dumont Fitness Training.  So it should come as a bit of a surprise to anyone that I've gained 8 pounds since starting at JDFT and that contrary to what I'd like to believe, it's not all muscle.  I think it is really important at this point to state affirmatively that I don't believe that this weight that I appear to be unable to shake has anything to do with JDFT because there are scores of success stories that come out of JDFT.  I plan to become one of those success stories.

I know and acknowledge outright that I have not eaten well the last few days.  It's not that I have eaten bad food, but I haven't been feeling well and so I have not eaten as much as I probably should.   I actually went to the doctor yesterday who sent me to the lab today to get blood work done - cholesterol, B12, thyroid, everything, all over something that presents like a bladder infection without high nitrates.  So maybe some of this is chemical? 

Because I had to fast for 10 - 12 hours prior to getting blood work done, Jo told me that I'm not to workout today.  I have to admit that I emotionally took that the wrong way when she first said it, but I understand where it comes from and why that would be important today.  If my car has no fuel I can't go anywhere, so why would it be different if my body has no fuel?

All I know for sure is that the energy I first had when I started eating more isn't there anymore and I'm frustrated and disappointed that I can't seem to start losing weight, which was sort of the whole point of the exercise.  Lose weight, gain muscle.  I appear to be in the gain/gain portion and it doesn't feel like a win/win.